It's just the beginning

I cant help but feel this distance growing.. I cry myself to sleep because i feel like i dont fit into your busy life. It hurts me, a lot. But i cant stop you from living your life just for me. I know your busy,  but goddam. At least take the time to realize and apologize to me. Night after night i go to sleep crying because of you. I feel my heart breaking but i try to keep it together for as long as i can but after waiting and waiting, im getting tired of waiting. I want us to work, but if youre like this now, imagine you in college. Im so worried for us.. I love you, but i feel like youre too busy to realize it. At times i feel like you dont even love me back. It hurts so much..